Drawing before sleeping ;)

hey friends, we meet again,,
this night, at 9.20 p.m.,  i planned to sleep earlier cause one of my friend said that this time was a stupid time, it's better to sleep. I was agree with him. I though if i slept at that time, it will be healthy and fresh my mind in the next day. So,I shutted down my notebook and the lamp of my bed room.
On my bed, I closed my eyes in a few minutes, but i wasnt slept. Yup!! i cant sleep, may be cause i never slept this early, since i have been in university. In the dark, i was thinking,,,some conversations playing in my mind:

"hmm, what should I do if I stay up?"
"You can chat with ur friends"
"but , i'm not sure that my friend is online"

Then I though about my chatpartner from Germany that i told u before in previous entry, I am curious about how does he looks like. Hmm, I ever seen his pict before, but I cant remember his face clear, I only remember his sunglasses that he used in that pict.
And then, I imagined him n his looks. Then I woke up, n turn on the  lamp. I picked a paper, pencil, n eraser. I started to draw my imagination ;)

after a couple minutes,
I finished it..
U can see the pict beside this text, it's a visualitation of my imagination,.
It's a bit weird,, i've tried to make the face like a real man, but it just like that,  i drew him feminine,,.
My chatpartner is a man, inspite of gay, he is a real man,
may be my drawing is too cute as a Germany man, haha :D


I dont know his original face, but i hope the sunglasses in this drawing can become his indentification, haha *impossible* ;D
beside that, in this drawing, the man make his finger become L and I, and in his t-shirt, there are eyes which looks like O and L, so, if the eyes and the fingers r combined will become a nice word ;), u can read by ur self,,
hihihi ^^

The hair, I didnt know how's my chatpartner's hair style, i drew like that just cause of my wish ^^,, I told u that this is only a visualitation of my imagination, so it's according to me.
(Sorry Diva, if i broke ur face :D )

the pict above is the original photo of my drawing, then I edited it a bit with a programme on my notebook.
I added some effects, and gave some touching.,,
and now, this is the finishing of  the pict.

I'll show this to Diva, my chatpartner, I'll ask his opinion about this pict.

That's all I can tell u,, it's really late now. ( 1.29 a.m)
I should sleep, n wake up in the morning.
bye bye ;) ;)

Diva - New Friend from Germany

hey guys, may be i am not good in English, but i'll try to write this text in english.
u know why? because i write this especially for my new friend in Germany,
 if i write in bahasa, he will get trouble to translete :)
ok, to the point,

some days before, i was on chat site, where i could chat with stranger there. may be it's a bit weird to chat with stranger, but i was bored that time, so i search friend to talk with.
there i told that i m female, 70 years old.. some people disconnect me, i've already guess it, but it's ok, i just wanna chat with someone who didnt care who i am.
first, i met a girl from US, her name is amy, she was good, she wonder about me, why a granny was on that chat site, n then she knew that i was not 70 :D.. after talk long, suddenly we were disconnected cause the system was error.

then the second, and the third, this is the main one.. ;)
when i connected with the third person, the stranger said "SHIT!!" to me, omg, of course it shocked me -__-" (--> someone there doesnt like this smily),, how can he said “SHIT” to someone who didnt do anything, i planned to disconnect this person, but i cancelled it.
after talk some, i knew, he didnt give that word in purpose to me,.OK, i forgived him for his reason.
u know, he is gay. his name is _____________,, hmm, i promise him that I wont tell his real name, just called him Diva ;)  he is two years older than me (i hope this is true), and he is Germany..

( Hey Diva! may be u read there ^^ )

he laugh when he knew me female whose age 70 years old :D , but he continue the chatting
When i knew that he has good manner, then i told him the truth, that i m female _ _ years old. (younger) *he said that he guess it before, yeah he is smart*
hmm, guys, may be it's weird that i am a girl want to talk with a gay in a long time.
i thought about it too, but we chat more and more on that site, if i was not wrong, we chat there about 2 hours, it’s a wonderful duration.. and i knew he has good personality.
he respect to me. he is funny :D..  i like to chat with him
he told that he had a boyfriend, (on the first time, i was lot of laugh when he said this )
he said that he love him very much :D
he made him pizza that day, exactly he bought it, and put some cheese on it ;)
Diva said: "I m wife, n my BF is husband ;) "
i hope u all know the meaning of that statement..
he told me that he had fetish, it's a sunglasses :D, he used it although he was in the room,, haha i am not sure about it, but he said that..
cause i thought he was a nice chatpartner, we share email-id each other, so we can chat in other times.
that's right, it's usefull, the next days, and days after days we chat together, we talk everything, and i know that he is smart, i know new things from him, he told about Germany, and some famous people there, the history, the weather, and others. he also told about his friends, his family sometimes, his hobby and i enjoy all of his story. all were funny to me.. i like him and his story :D
his hobby is rally, bicycle, listening hip hop music, one of them --> T.I feat eminem's song ,, i forgot the tittle, but i heard it,. Sound’s good :) .. i like the rap part..
by the way, he has a special name fo me, it's "princess", i m very happy for this name :"> . sound's nice ^^ (thanks Diva, for the name)

i wonder, how a good person, like diva, be a gay, it's so pity.. may be if he is normal, he will get a nice girlfriend,, i guess so,, no doubth ^^ (i ever look his face, and it’s handsome enough :-P )
One day after first chatting, he told me that he broke up with his BF, i didnt know why, but truthly i was a bit happy to hear that, may be cause i always hope he will be a normal guy in the future ( i mean not gay anymore).. but, actually he still gay,,, ok, whatever..
however he is, i like him, and he knows that ;)

we have different religion, we knew that, i knew he was surprised when know this, but then we just be friend like before, i respect him, and he respect me :).. I hope Diva doesnt have negative thinking to me, i just wanna be friend,..

OK, that’s all I can tell u now, may be i’ll tell more later, if Diva let me ;)
i hope Diva and I will be friend forever, wish we will meet on Germany someday
oh ya,, Diva promised me to buy me teddy shoes when i am on Germany.. haha (LOL) ;)

i hope u guys can understand my writing, cause i know that i m not good in English ;)

Si Emas dan Si Hitam

ehm, bacaan ini ditemukan setelah bongkar2 email yg udah lama g kebaca..
Sembari menghapus beberapa email yg kira2 udah kadaluarsa (g update), aku nemuin tulisan ini;
berjudul "Dua Kotak"
Judul emailnya membangkitkan rasa penasaran,OK, apa isinya?

Begini,,,

Dua Kotak.
Ada di tanganku dua buah kotak yang telah Tuhan berikan padaku untuk dijaga.
Tuhan berkata: "Masukkan semua penderitaanmu ke dalam kotak yang berwarna hitam.
Dan masukkan semua kebahagiaanmu ke dalam kotak yang berwarna emas."
Aku melakukan apa yang Tuhan katakan.
Setiap kali mengalami kesedihan maka aku letakkan ia ke dalam kotak hitam.
Sebaliknya ketika bergembira maka aku letakkan kegembiraanku dalam kotak berwarna emas.
Tapi anehnya, semakin hari kotak berwarna emas semakin bertambah berat.
Sedangkan kotak berwarna hitam tetap saja ringan seperti semula.
Dengan penuh rasa penasaran, aku membuka kotak berwarna hitam.
Kini aku tahu jawabannya.
Aku melihat ada lubang besar di dasar kotak berwarna hitam itu,
sehingga semua penderitaan yang aku masukkan ke sana selalu jatuh keluar.
Aku tunjukkan lubang itu pada Tuhan dan bertanya,
"Kemanakah perginya semua penderitaanku?"
Tuhan tersenyum hangat padaku.
"Hamba-Ku, semua penderitaanmu berada padaKu."
Aku bertanya kembali, "Tuhan, mengapa Engkau memberikan dua buah kotak, kotak emas dan kotak hitam yang berlubang?"
"HambaKu, kotak emas Kuberikan agar kau senantiasa menghitung rahmat yang Aku berikan padamu, sedangkan kotak hitam Kuberikan agar kau melupakan penderitaanmu."
Ingat-ingatlah semua kebahagiaanmu agar kau senantiasa merasakan kebahagiaan.
Campakkan penderitaanmu agar kau melupakannya.

Sumber : Milis Motivasi

Meskipun teman-teman sudah membaca tulisan seperti ini berkali-kali, semoga dengan membaca sekali lagi rasa syukur kita semakin bertambah ;)